She invited me on a date to her hometown, I said no last minute and she left without me, upset. Later I went to my roommate's grandparents for jiggs dinner, had a half hour conversation about cats and on the way back I decided to drive to hew town whatever it takes, took me five minutes to get ready: toothbrush, underwear, pj's, go. I just felt so bad and missed her so much, and since we are not officially (?) together, I was afraid she could of hooked up with someone else. her friend picked me up and took me to her house, she seemed distant and it was kinda awkward, until we all (her and her 2 friends, who are by the way awesome, kenzie would not stop saying "I'm so happy you came out!" ) got in a car and drove to places. then a bar, people, wasted Laura, hangover morning, walk of shame, driving to places again. She took my hand in the car, I felt calm and taken care of. She wanted me to stay for another day, but I felt like going home, so she offered to go together. All the way home she was holding my hand and then we spent the evening together watching jersey shore and she passed out and we woke up at night and got in a fight over something stupid, were sleeping on the opposite sides, I felt horrible but didn't know what to do, she came closer and held me and said: "I get frustrated sometimes, I'm only human, but I'm not going nowhere and you are the only one I'm interested in". I like that she can talk about things, and she is so much more mature than I am and I want to trust her and everything but I am so painfully insecure that I can't help worrying, worrying that she will do something that will hurt me. She doesn't know how hard it is for me to trust, I will work on my issues, because she's worth it, because I care.. I guess. Oh my.

Also, I want to go to Magdalen Islands en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Magdalen_Islands